How am I feeling

We do expect something always, although we're aware about the disappointment always comes after undone expectations. And then tend not to think about and believe bad things are really happening with several own fake reasons. At that time we do believe in good things even if they are silly enough, just to rely on something as we feel so much better having those in mind. Being better myself doesn't mean to take care of me like baby, sometimes maybe an ass kicking behind is good. So, NO!

不对

总觉得人长得越大，接触的事物多了
就会有越来越多的喜好，越来越多的意见，要求
以前小的时候什么都不知道，有什么就要什么
现在懂得多了，反而就变得难了吧
想法多了，事情就一定要变得复杂吗？
或许更加应该懂得应变，不同场合就选择适合的事物


弄巧反拙，不在能力范围之内
方法总是有很多种，不是不知道也不是不想做
或许所想的真的太多，也把事情想得太简单
想象中可以是很好，总是在以为
忘了是从什么时候开始，事情实际上变得那么不实际


知道了这个世界上，有黑，也有白
找对灰了吗？
做人不可以以己度人，我希望我会记得
在一个问题的种子旁边种下一个未知的种子，或许并不适当
那个问题的种子啊，去想一想
别把问题丢给别人，或者先解决自己的问题
雨过天晴
我应该真的很希望雨过会天晴吧
天空应该不会允许放晴，等我吧

Think No More!!

It seems to be a different night, having a different thought, different feeling, listening to Cheer Chen whom i've not been listening to for quite a while, and maybe i won't even remember what i've been writing here. Yeah i'm so sorry to my blogspot for lazing all these while and not updating it, also to Ms.Fun haha keeps chasing me to write. alright i'm listening to this song -九份的咖啡店, it's really something interesting, i'm now feeling something i've been feeling so emotionally, although it was before and so different with what i am and what i'm doing now, it's the same, from what i'm feeling. that's how music can have their magic power, that's why it's always so uniquely effective for me.


For those who's reading, you may just stop right here since i'm writing this for no reason, for no purpose, and for nothing. It's just time for me to stop thinking and just spread out whatever in my mind. i thought i would be so busy today but ended up i've been staying here for the whole day, and maybe that is why i've so many things to bla bla bla here. well not so many things, just some shits. although i'm not very sure where all these shits come from, and what they really are.


i know this is really nothing, just let it be, once, nothing. 面对镜子里面的自己，话不投机~~

I'm in ZERO

Yea i've been lazing for quite a while, it was to be called lazy, i seriously haven't done anything in meaning. At least nothing i can find when i try to look around what I've done. It was all dota and series, how cute! Yea Laci (Rachy) you're right, cobwebs are all around, i took time to clear everything :) Now i remember the day we cooked and ate together, it was so warm and I'm so glad i was there, so is ms.fun!

Although i wanted so much to spend time to think about many things, ended up dota won everything. LOL as i started to update this, i know it's gonna start to lose, at least sometimes. Just had an empty Christmas, i can't imagine how the coming new year will be, and i'm still trapped at home, by myself. I wonder why i would suddenly become emo, as i didn't really have anything to worry about, or they are coming out from the hidden.

This is why we call Zero, we have nothing right now before we start to build up everything, just like how we started when we first met. This is why we can be emo more often, and we are allowed! :D (do agree me) And it's also the time for us to check up everything, to fix things that we found problem. All these take times, at least for me it takes very very long time, i realise i have so many things to fix, even before i find out what they are.

As usual, must share something.




These 2 are the final assignments, i guess so.

took this after her haircut, Lalalolatinaloh!

so sad i was driving, couldn't keep my eyes on this.

Sampai sini saje lah, I'm gonna get things done! See ya around!

October - November

Ms. Fun you gotta believe me that i really wanted to update my blog for days and weeks, lol i was just too busy (meaning lazy) and i really wanted to update my blog on the 14th nov then it will be exactly 1 month of Austin's updates LOL! it's not too bad for a month's absence, at least i have more stuffs to share kaka! so it's like a summary of what happened within a month, OCT and NOV, which i now look back but don't seem to remember anything. only 2 main things i guess.

Short sem is always rushing people to hell! told myself to enjoy this last time for having fun in classes, spending time with mc family, being mean with queen tee(actually she's the only one), and a lot more! but we are already in hell before we realise, how sad is that. still, the feeling of accomplishment is so great especially with you people LOL! just that the more we've finished, the closer we're to the world. it's the indication telling us that we have to get ready by now, no more excuses to say 'I dON'T KNOW'!

somehow i have to relax myself before stepping into reality! LOL! these photos are gonna be so useful to remind me about my time :D (ok here it comes with pictures, hope it wasn't too long, alright Calvin?! :P)

it was located in One Utama around Halloween season, haha we've got our free Lychee Cooler!! since then i fall in love with juice works :P

went to this OctobeFest for our news shoot, they are so friendly :D

Venue : PC203
Time : Lecture

It looks nice but i was so mad! long story

I just snapped it

This is nice for me!!

till then, bye!

Spending time like really a sem break!

days like these have become dull, which i actually think it's quite a good timing for myself to sit down quietly and think of something seriously. this is the last week of my semester break, well i have only 3 weeks in fact, why am i not surprised i'll be back to school soon. i don't really remember what i've done in the past 2 weeks, gosh already 2 weeks, kinda hard to believe it.

i was reminded abt 1 scene, therefore searched in youtube and i found this...

personally think the soundtrack is great, just a little thing to share :)

start missin those cute faces and i couldn't get to see all of you guys for weeks, guess that's why life isn't as cool as how we decide what to eat, which class to skip, where to go after class, or who to do all the typing job or preparin slides, and all. but i'm kinda sure i'm so gonna complain a lot for doin too much of these, coz we are doin 3 subjects in the comin semester and that's really packed, even worse than how we kept rushin things in last year short sem. i'm lookin forward :)

caught 2 of the cute faces on mag

as usual, pictures of my favorite to share(Calvin will complain if too much of texts!)

dawn breakin is always cool!

we see this and we know it's gonna be a good day

let's have good days forever!!

失败者的飞翔

最近一直重复在听这一张专辑，陈绮贞的［太阳］。里面的每一首歌都让我觉得有不一样的感动。

一直认为音乐真的有某种神奇的力量，不管原本在想些什么，音乐感觉很像会带着自己到某一个地方。这一次仔细地听着绮贞的歌，不管是她的歌声或是吉他声，都是那么的单纯，那么的舒缓。在歌词上也有一定的意境，至少不像其他的歌，尽管我一直重复的在听着同样的这些歌，却始终没有办法真正的了解歌中包含的意义。这一点更是吸引了我不断的在听她的歌，虽然不解，但音乐还是那么实在的感动。某种因素下，这一首歌是第一首我真的想要了解的歌，
［失败者的飞翔］



失敗者的飛翔
你知道嗎　聽你說話
我只需要聽你說話
在你的聲音中　安全得讓我害怕
這是一個　快樂的警告
警告我別想逃
這個特別的時刻
判斷絕不會是你想要
你的溫 柔　包圍
而我像個沒人愛的傻瓜
你的影子巨大　像喧囂的髒話
在一片歡樂的景像之中
我卻覺得勉強
在離別的前夕　找不憂傷的台階下

你承認吧
你也想要體驗英雄般的誇張悲壯
來不及為你歌唱
你瀟灑而昂揚
在一片荒涼的景像之中
我卻覺得晴朗
讓我為你飛翔　在你殘破的天空之上
當我聽你說話　給我肩並肩的擁抱


看着歌词，确实没办法直接明白歌手想要传达的讯息，可又是那么的吸引人去找出那其中的含义。上网搜了一番以后，才发现她曾经说道：‘成功的定义是什么？如果大家都认为成功是高高在上的，那么我认为成功的上面，是失败者的飞翔。’
这种想法是何等的不一样，让人觉得更加的佩服，难怪有人说：听她的歌已经是一种信仰。把这种声音称为天籁其实也不算过火。

另外有一首旧歌特别想要分享，［太聪明］


又一首很舒服的曲，尽管不去理会歌词在唱些什么，只要听着那把可爱的吉他声还是可以听出来一种调皮和狡猾。当然歌词还是一样的，没有太过完整却是那么的诚恳。