How am I feeling

We do expect something always, although we're aware about the disappointment always comes after undone expectations. And then tend not to think about and believe bad things are really happening with several own fake reasons. At that time we do believe in good things even if they are silly enough, just to rely on something as we feel so much better having those in mind. Being better myself doesn't mean to take care of me like baby, sometimes maybe an ass kicking behind is good. So, NO!