Ozdinc a Coody living being

How am I feeling

2010-10-14T10:21:00.002+08:00

We do expect something always, although we're aware about the disappointment always comes after undone expectations. And then tend not to think about and believe bad things are really happening with several own fake reasons. At that time we do believe in good things even if they are silly enough, just to rely on something as we feel so much better having those in mind. Being better myself doesn't mean to take care of me like baby, sometimes maybe an ass kicking behind is good. So, NO!

不对

2010-08-15T17:05:00.002+08:00

总觉得人长得越大，接触的事物多了
就会有越来越多的喜好，越来越多的意见，要求
以前小的时候什么都不知道，有什么就要什么
现在懂得多了，反而就变得难了吧
想法多了，事情就一定要变得复杂吗？
或许更加应该懂得应变，不同场合就选择适合的事物

弄巧反拙，不在能力范围之内
方法总是有很多种，不是不知道也不是不想做
或许所想的真的太多，也把事情想得太简单
想象中可以是很好，总是在以为
忘了是从什么时候开始，事情实际上变得那么不实际

知道了这个世界上，有黑，也有白
找对灰了吗？
做人不可以以己度人，我希望我会记得
在一个问题的种子旁边种下一个未知的种子，或许并不适当
那个问题的种子啊，去想一想
别把问题丢给别人，或者先解决自己的问题
雨过天晴
我应该真的很希望雨过会天晴吧
天空应该不会允许放晴，等我吧

Think No More!!

2010-02-21T01:42:00.002+08:00

It seems to be a different night, having a different thought, different feeling, listening to Cheer Chen whom i've not been listening to for quite a while, and maybe i won't even remember what i've been writing here. Yeah i'm so sorry to my blogspot for lazing all these while and not updating it, also to Ms.Fun haha keeps chasing me to write. alright i'm listening to this song -九份的咖啡店, it's really something interesting, i'm now feeling something i've been feeling so emotionally, although it was before and so different with what i am and what i'm doing now, it's the same, from what i'm feeling. that's how music can have their magic power, that's why it's always so uniquely effective for me.

For those who's reading, you may just stop right here since i'm writing this for no reason, for no purpose, and for nothing. It's just time for me to stop thinking and just spread out whatever in my mind. i thought i would be so busy today but ended up i've been staying here for the whole day, and maybe that is why i've so many things to bla bla bla here. well not so many things, just some shits. although i'm not very sure where all these shits come from, and what they really are.

i know this is really nothing, just let it be, once, nothing. 面对镜子里面的自己，话不投机~~

I'm in ZERO

2009-12-28T15:35:00.005+08:00

Yea i've been lazing for quite a while, it was to be called lazy, i seriously haven't done anything in meaning. At least nothing i can find when i try to look around what I've done. It was all dota and series, how cute! Yea Laci (Rachy) you're right, cobwebs are all around, i took time to clear everything :) Now i remember the day we cooked and ate together, it was so warm and I'm so glad i was there, so is ms.fun!

Although i wanted so much to spend time to think about many things, ended up dota won everything. LOL as i started to update this, i know it's gonna start to lose, at least sometimes. Just had an empty Christmas, i can't imagine how the coming new year will be, and i'm still trapped at home, by myself. I wonder why i would suddenly become emo, as i didn't really have anything to worry about, or they are coming out from the hidden.

This is why we call Zero, we have nothing right now before we start to build up everything, just like how we started when we first met. This is why we can be emo more often, and we are allowed! :D (do agree me) And it's also the time for us to check up everything, to fix things that we found problem. All these take times, at least for me it takes very very long time, i realise i have so many things to fix, even before i find out what they are.

As usual, must share something.

These 2 are the final assignments, i guess so.

took this after her haircut, Lalalolatinaloh!

so sad i was driving, couldn't keep my eyes on this.

Sampai sini saje lah, I'm gonna get things done! See ya around!

October - November

2009-11-13T09:55:00.009+08:00

Ms. Fun you gotta believe me that i really wanted to update my blog for days and weeks, lol i was just too busy (meaning lazy) and i really wanted to update my blog on the 14th nov then it will be exactly 1 month of Austin's updates LOL! it's not too bad for a month's absence, at least i have more stuffs to share kaka! so it's like a summary of what happened within a month, OCT and NOV, which i now look back but don't seem to remember anything. only 2 main things i guess.

Short sem is always rushing people to hell! told myself to enjoy this last time for having fun in classes, spending time with mc family, being mean with queen tee(actually she's the only one), and a lot more! but we are already in hell before we realise, how sad is that. still, the feeling of accomplishment is so great especially with you people LOL! just that the more we've finished, the closer we're to the world. it's the indication telling us that we have to get ready by now, no more excuses to say 'I dON'T KNOW'!

somehow i have to relax myself before stepping into reality! LOL! these photos are gonna be so useful to remind me about my time :D (ok here it comes with pictures, hope it wasn't too long, alright Calvin?! :P)

it was located in One Utama around Halloween season, haha we've got our free Lychee Cooler!! since then i fall in love with juice works :P

went to this OctobeFest for our news shoot, they are so friendly :D

Venue : PC203
Time : Lecture

It looks nice but i was so mad! long story

I just snapped it

This is nice for me!!

till then, bye!

Spending time like really a sem break!

2009-10-14T15:33:00.008+08:00

days like these have become dull, which i actually think it's quite a good timing for myself to sit down quietly and think of something seriously. this is the last week of my semester break, well i have only 3 weeks in fact, why am i not surprised i'll be back to school soon. i don't really remember what i've done in the past 2 weeks, gosh already 2 weeks, kinda hard to believe it.

i was reminded abt 1 scene, therefore searched in youtube and i found this...

personally think the soundtrack is great, just a little thing to share :)

start missin those cute faces and i couldn't get to see all of you guys for weeks, guess that's why life isn't as cool as how we decide what to eat, which class to skip, where to go after class, or who to do all the typing job or preparin slides, and all. but i'm kinda sure i'm so gonna complain a lot for doin too much of these, coz we are doin 3 subjects in the comin semester and that's really packed, even worse than how we kept rushin things in last year short sem. i'm lookin forward :)

caught 2 of the cute faces on mag

as usual, pictures of my favorite to share(Calvin will complain if too much of texts!)

dawn breakin is always cool!

we see this and we know it's gonna be a good day

let's have good days forever!!

失败者的飞翔

2009-10-06T09:30:00.003+08:00

最近一直重复在听这一张专辑，陈绮贞的［太阳］。里面的每一首歌都让我觉得有不一样的感动。

一直认为音乐真的有某种神奇的力量，不管原本在想些什么，音乐感觉很像会带着自己到某一个地方。这一次仔细地听着绮贞的歌，不管是她的歌声或是吉他声，都是那么的单纯，那么的舒缓。在歌词上也有一定的意境，至少不像其他的歌，尽管我一直重复的在听着同样的这些歌，却始终没有办法真正的了解歌中包含的意义。这一点更是吸引了我不断的在听她的歌，虽然不解，但音乐还是那么实在的感动。某种因素下，这一首歌是第一首我真的想要了解的歌，
［失败者的飞翔］

失敗者的飛翔
你知道嗎　聽你說話
我只需要聽你說話
在你的聲音中　安全得讓我害怕
這是一個　快樂的警告
警告我別想逃
這個特別的時刻
判斷絕不會是你想要
你的溫柔　包圍
而我像個沒人愛的傻瓜
你的影子巨大　像喧囂的髒話
在一片歡樂的景像之中
我卻覺得勉強
在離別的前夕　找不憂傷的台階下

你承認吧
你也想要體驗英雄般的誇張悲壯
來不及為你歌唱
你瀟灑而昂揚
在一片荒涼的景像之中
我卻覺得晴朗
讓我為你飛翔　在你殘破的天空之上
當我聽你說話　給我肩並肩的擁抱

看着歌词，确实没办法直接明白歌手想要传达的讯息，可又是那么的吸引人去找出那其中的含义。上网搜了一番以后，才发现她曾经说道：‘成功的定义是什么？如果大家都认为成功是高高在上的，那么我认为成功的上面，是失败者的飞翔。’
这种想法是何等的不一样，让人觉得更加的佩服，难怪有人说：听她的歌已经是一种信仰。把这种声音称为天籁其实也不算过火。

另外有一首旧歌特别想要分享，［太聪明］

又一首很舒服的曲，尽管不去理会歌词在唱些什么，只要听着那把可爱的吉他声还是可以听出来一种调皮和狡猾。当然歌词还是一样的，没有太过完整却是那么的诚恳。

Short Break

2009-09-30T07:10:00.005+08:00

the short break i mean break from semester, not anything else. it's a 3 weeks holiday, yea it's holiday! gosh how many ppl crave for holiday but i'm sitting here and start feeling confused, thinking that maybe i just had quite enough rest during exam weeks (i know i'm sucks), so, i may not need anymore holiday? anyway it's free, so i should just shut myself up and enjoy! but the thing is i won't get to see soooo many ppl within these 3 weeks, i'm so gonna miss so many things. but my mum misses me more than everything i guess haha!!

missed quite a few times to be hanging out and partaying with friends, yea Ying i saw the photos and you all looked really really enjoyed!! i wish i was there haha but nvm, we have times to go :D attended 2 wedding dinners last week, i did see the difference between these 2, was a bit speechless. btw i was really impressed when i was joining Su Ching's wedding, saw how the brothers being fooled by sisters, how the bridegroom finally got to bring the bride home, it was sweet and fun enough. the funny thing was the bride's house and the bridegroom's house are actually at the same row with few houses in between! LOL! will try to post some photos sooner.

i think i just need somemore rest, haha it's too early, nitey!

A Wedding Day

2009-09-21T08:09:00.002+08:00

it's so early in the mornin, yaaawn, i slept for like only few hours, it's a sudden plan, to be asked to be cameraman for a friend's weddin and take down the whole thing! wow they just simply said because i'm doin this course and it's gonna be easy for me LOL. the thing is i've never known what people will do in a weddin la aduh. it's gonna be a good experience i suppose, and it's really happy and wonderful to see this sweet couple to begin their life further.

and i just realize i ate too much and drink too much last night, even until now i can still feel the food inside argh! tonight's gonna be another session to drink a lot more and i believe i'll really gain so much of weight! whenever this happens, i'll just remember, LIFE IS SHORT :D feel much better hahah

signin out, still *yawn*. sigh, just realize i'm still in exam wei...feelin so guilty now...

Feeling for Friends

2009-09-18T17:25:00.007+08:00

had another tough paper today, it was tough when i realized the time ran so fast and i still had so much more to write. was feelin kinda down but i never seem to be bothered because of exam! just felt down, i didn't know why. anyway everything was getting much better when i had this for lunch...
however not because of the food is nice to cheer me up, (in fact the food was close to sucks LOL) but the gang eating with me haha! was really a nice talk, somehow i realize how 幸福 i am now. was having good time with Ms.Fun, Phoebe, SKT! haha din expect eh Ms.Fun?! although in such a lousy place haha i'm so sorry. sometimes i feel like giving a hand to somebody, my experience tells me things might end up myself being too kepoh, or even kena lightning strike for being kind, maybe i should always remind myself to be 心有余而力不足. human is born to learn through toughness :D

i'm starving now like haven't taken food for days, huh it's so weird for me to feel hungry so quickly these days. i've just eaten few hours ago!! guess the says in chinese is right : 近朱者赤，近墨者黑. is it too weird to type few chinese words within an english blog? hmm i just don't know what those proverbs are called in english. do forgive me.

just had a phone call with a high school buddy, Ms.LYL is going overseas for her Master in UK! how envious! well i gotta seriously thank to her, thank to this kind-hearted lady guiding me to have part of my life in UTAR! haha not a very good suggestion, but a great one to have met everyone here afterall :) she was one of the person who actually forced me to CHOOSE ONE! although sometimes really cannot tahan as she really doesn't know how to behave!! yet still a BFF la haha. i always cannot be like her to have own target and dream to achieve, always listen to her saying what she hopes to do, wants to do, without really giving reaction, 'oh ok, yea not bad, sounds great!' haha a great listener looking at someone whose characteristics totally different with himself. maybe that's just me, the original me. now she's going over UK and what more can i say? good luck pal! haha hopefully it's gonna happen to have a visit at you in UK soonest :D signin out coz i wanna go back home!! Satay Town yeah! Selamat Hari Raya abang adik kakak semua!!

taken in satay town :)

Ethical Dilemma

2009-09-17T07:25:00.003+08:00

another day passed, and i seem to be so calm as the next paper in on friday..ops...tomorrow!! er...yea tomorrow!! i just had too much fun in these exam weeks, really don't look like i'm having my final exams.

another good day passed, and the funny thing is that i start wondering how many good days like this there will be for me? then only i know i'm actually just afraid of losing something as well as the other people, i thought i'm not. anyway it wasn't that good though, at least i'm gonna call it an ethical dilemma and we all know how difficult and complicated to figure an ethical dilemma and to determine whether it's justified! this is what i'll need to do in the paper tmr. but seriously, we are lucky to have met Ms.Jullian! i guess this is the only paper that i'll be able to go straight to the exam hall without doing any revision (yet i'll still be doing la! trust me!) just because of this lady! how powderful and efficient to have most of us understanding all the theories sooooo well! in fact i also didn't really study well for the other papers that i'm not familiar with. bloody lazy piggy soul in a human body! ok i know i'm talkin too much craps, it's just too early in the morning i don't seem to wake up yet.

woke up at this hour willingly, but not purposely, will be going back to sleep anyway. haha don't think i'm crazy waking up so early without any reason, there is a reason. i think i regret now for not having the BEEHUN GORENG last night, so darn craving for it now, it tastes really nice la!

to mention what achievement i've done lately, haha look at the picture...

can you guys see what's so different with my RC? haha look at the gourmet points, it's soooo bloody high right? :D yea i'm gonna admit that i did play cheat in the game lol! but i didn't really want to cheat, just heard from my sister and she said it seems difficult to do, then i was just trying to help to figure out. mana tau...LOL after trying then i din know it would suddenly add so much, i was like..HOLYSHIT! now everyone knows that i cheated :P aiya don't care la~ for those who are interested, just ask me how la hahahaha~!!!

signing out to meet my bed, nitey

Short One

2009-09-12T02:19:00.005+08:00

alrighty, i think just a short one, Ms Fun reminded about somethin, made me become emo again LOL. remind me about the orange shirt photos, that 'once' we worked together!! not that great but memorable one! haha! the only short semester left, after that won't be having chances to be together and work in group so happily. arghhhh i'm so gonna miss all these! how la amma and the Mc family!?

btw i was so excited to add another entry here last night when revising the law!! yooohooo now i'm writing it lol! n something happened yesterday, dearest Ms Tina got the wrong date in her mind, she was still in Ipoh last night and we have our first paper today!!! imagine whoelse can do that?! haha only the bravo Loh Tona! well i'm not mocking her la haha, just that it was really so gan jiong! and this blog actually saved her life haha! because of this blog, the palm spring gang was mocking me, then i finally couldn't stand and voiced out in FB and that was how she realized today's paper!! :)

okai i said this will be short, can't write too much else Mr Rempit is gonna complain that i'm writing essay again! gonna sign out and before that just some photos to share, realized the sky is always full of clouds these days, guess this is the first thing for me to think it's ART! see how the clouds play with the light!

this is my own favorite!

too bad with the wire..

Nitey world!

Sudden thought of the FUTURE!

2009-09-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

randomly i have this sudden thought abt wat i'm gonna do in the future, it has been real worried for me since the day for me to grad is so darn close wei. ever wonder whether we live to work or work to live, anyone? it's just almost like the question abt we have a chick or an egg first. it's sometimes boring to think of so much of this, n i've got advices like, y don't u live life to the fullest? well i wanted to n i'm so gonna live my life so.

actually the current life i'm having, i'm really satisfied, or maybe i just don't need anything else, it's so much more than enough. feel like having some plans for the FUTURE, yet i always don't believe in planning. i have to admit, things go better n smoother with plan, but it's just not for all. some of the ppl do plan for something and they don't want to have any changes, they are good because they stick to the plan, just follow and everything is nice, fine and complete. for me it's just not totally so, things could be also good to be flexible as we just can't control everything, anything any changes could happen anytime, the only thing we can do is to accept whatever comes ard.

back to the topic tat i've been thinking n worried, some of the things are actually fixed as i don't think i'm able to be so different with other ppl, it's the routine. get a job, work n live n work n live. it isn't that complicated but not that simple as well, at least i'm so stunned if anyone would want me to really have the plan for this. maybe to be a bit more specific, it's tough to be working in this line, as everyone of us realized after the internship. n honestly i don't like the style to be working under this type. the first thing came to my mind while having my intern was that, i had no life, my own life. it's kind of killing the fun part of my life, which then i realized maybe i could be more suitable to be in 9 5 mode. although the working part is really exciting and challenging. the decision to be made here is rather difficult for me, yet i don't have much choices, just to go through what i've been doing all this while, or try some other things.

it might be labeled some fear on it, because seriously i enjoy the life in uni now, the time having with all the crazy uni mates, every single moments i feel good. guess i must miss what we have done, these times. haha even during exam, like NOW! we did so many things other than revision, even more than the ordinary days. weird huh? everyone just becomes so active that we can see on FB, MSN, don't deny! haha. even yesterday, went to this Korean Rest (we don't normally have Korean food, only with the bday girl) named Gu Lai Ting, the environment is good, n very typical korean food (i suppose, not very sure since i'm not a fans of it), the only thing is a bit difficult to communicate with the foreigner who served. n we're actually not very familiar with Korean type of food, some of them are kinda weird :P haha yet i just ate what i saw, that's what a pig does.

see the bacon! that's korean barbeque!

here's some chicken, looks like Teppanyaki!

the bday girl, who will nvr stop talking abt korean stuffs!

anyway, it has been a while for me blogging quite a lot of stuffs...because i have a paper tmr!!! gotta be crazy here. maybe early revision still cannot count on me, what more can i say? alrighty i'm gonna get them done asap!!! wish myself good luck! till then, signing out n i myself will be looking forward to another entry soon! see ya!